亲情，爱情，友情。。

我知错了，我不再多用电话。。
我多么想她都好我也忍了下来。。
在学校，我想尽办法来补回我的分数。。
我不再扣分，我考好我的成绩
只为了你们的一句：你没用了！
我不相信！我改！！
就当是为了你们，就当时为了自己。。
但是到了最后，我终于知道在你们心里
无论我做得怎么好。。原来也是零
电话单里，出现RM160这个字。。
之前是四百多令吉。。在我的心里，我很开心！
我认为我做到了，虽然这只是个开始
但在你们眼里，根本视无存在。。
你们也一样骂我，问我那是必要的吗？
我傻了！顿时我无话可说。。
我回答你们：我已经尽量改着了。。
但最终，你们却骂我做错事还顶嘴！
我承认，我变了！我变得叛逆。。
你们对我说过的，我都听到
但为什么你们不能想想看，其实我也有在进步了？
我希望的，只是你们简单的一句：
你在改变了。。很好！
但我的希望落空，我开始往反方面想。。
我开始又打电话，但在学校我还是保持着一样。。
我很怕！怕学校老师complain, 你们又再骂我了！
只有我的妈妈，只有她鼓励我。。
在我最伤心时，你告诉我：
[ 无论你变好还是变坏，你永远都是我的女儿，
有什么问题你可以告诉我，因为我们永远都是两母女！]
这句话，依然清晰地留在我的脑海里。。
因为你的鼓励，我又振作起来。。
希望你们再相信我。。相信我会改。。
但还有吗？？还有机会吗？？？我不知道。。
至于她，我们可能有一段时间，会有点辛苦。。
希望你会等我。。很快的。。
我会证明给他们看，也证明给你看！
我们一起，度过这一次，好吗？
不要对我说：是我连累你。。你并没有。。。
这是我的选择，明白吗？？
我还是会爱着你！
洁莹，我知道你为了我好。。
不过我真的很难做决定，可能两方面，我都要顾及。。
谢谢你！你对我的好，我会记住 =)
亲情，爱情，友情
我需要时间，再一次证明给你们看！
haihh...
现在的我，真的很想念她！
明天的比赛，你一定要加油！！
虽然我不在那里，
不过我还是会在你心里，支持你！！
对了！告诉你一句：
生日快乐！
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
今天是我们的830!
但我们都忘了！没关系，快乐只在我们的心中。。
你要等我，很快的。。会很快的。。。。。
再说一次：我爱你！！
eemmuuakssss !!
=)

I don't care about distance, i just care about u!*

today i got tuition, i miss her lots..but i stil must go
she gave me letter, it was so sweet..i love it !*
she told me dat tomorow band's things..
ya ! tomorrow she is going her band until 2 sumthings,
study for two period, then she go back already..
after dat she stil must go for her tuition..
so i must wait her phone until 10
nevermine , i already promise her
that i won't angry..so i din..i must 'ti liang' her
she know that i will miss her,
so write the letter for me.. =)
finally wait until 945..finish tuition..
woo ~! damn happy ! finally i can go back home n call her !!
but..some things bad happern--
my auntie forgot to come and fetch us..
so we must wait her..when she came
the time already show 1015 ! WTF* i m rush !
argh !! in my heart, i guess..
i guess she already sleep..but i wish she will wait me..
finally reached home , 1034
(... do u know why i will so remember abt the time ?
because i am so miss her n so panic abt it ! grr !...)
FINE ! i called her .....
but she din answered..what ?? i tried many times..
but she stil din answered..i just heard that stupid voicemail !
then i phone her house , her aunt told me
'' ziqin arh ? ziqin shui jiao le lorr... " =.=
What the....haizhh , why she din wait me ??
suddenly i become moody
my heart was so pain..i m so miss her.. ='(
my tears wanna drop down..
but i control it , open the computer..
she din write blog , din reply friendster comment
hmm..i think she is too tired, so very early sleep d..
i knw her 'pattern' de..
n maybe tomorrow she must wakeup at 4
nvermine..i do my things n try dun to miss her..
but cannot , my heart just keep on miss-ing her...
suddenly , the phone rang ~~
1st time, is my mom =.=
2nd time, again her
3rd time......i cant hear anythings..
the sound was so soft , but i know...IS HER !!
her sound was so sleepy..
although we just talk a while , ( cos she sleep again )...
but it is enough to me.. =) i m happy !!
this few days she is busy for her band..but i din angry
I dont care about distance, i just care about you !
although we apart , but i stil will wait you~
u are always in my heart..*
nitex n sweetdream ~
IMY .....

我不想得到残忍的结果，你愿意等我吗？

可能有一段时间，我们不能像以前一样
每一天，每一时刻都在联络。。
每一晚我们都必须等。。等到临睡前才能通电话
这样的日子对我来说，实在很辛苦，
不过我还能做什么？？
我会因为这段感情而坚持下去。。我不会退缩
就算有多么的想你，我也只会隐藏在内心的最深处
因为我知道，我不能因而放弃 ！
因为爱一个人，需要付出代价的。。
选择了你我并不后悔～
不过在我心里，我最害怕也最不敢面对的。。是你！
因为我不晓得，你是否还会等我。。
因为我不晓得，你几时会放弃。。
因为我知道，对我们来说是很艰难的事情。。很累很累。。
你会等我吗？？请你想清楚。。
我不想以后的你告诉我，你不想等了。。
这对我来说，是一个残忍的结果。。
我想得到的，并不多。。
只是希望此时此刻的我们，会因为这次的考验
将彼此将近一年的感情拉得更近，更稳固～
你愿意吗？你愿意等我吗？？
无论结果是如何，我还是会等你！！
可能爱情真的会让人失去自我。。
等待着你～

Can you believe me ??

Can you believe that i miss you?
Can you believe that i care about you?
Can you believe that i need you?
Can you believe that I Love You ??
Can you believe...?
I miss you ,
i miss you all the time..
i miss your voice
i miss your hug
i miss your smile
i miss you tell me I MISS YOU
when i am miss-ing you
I care about you ,
i keep on calling you to drink water..
i scare u will sick..i knw u hate medicine..
when i din beside you..
would you take care yourself ?
I need you ,
i need you to share my happiness
i need you to care about me
i need you to comfort me when
my tears drop down cause of nothing
i need you to tell me i love you
i need you when i need you ...
I love you ,
i love your everythings
i love your every hug and your every kiss
i love you tell me i love you
loving you din have any reason
i won't let it go
but the first things is...
Can you believe me ??
would you believe me ?
i am waiting your answer....

with love

甜甜圈

甜甜圈

天天非常想你的甜点

飞过城市的边缘

降落爱你的终点

想念互道晚安的每一天

却又舍不得说再见

你的笑那么甜

我的直觉就是那么坚决

不怕有暴风圈

因为你是我最晴朗的大晴天

爱要你牵我的手每一天

我要非常用心感觉

因为爱你

才是我最后最美丽的句点

喜欢在你的肩膀盘旋

习惯两个人的世界

才让我的心永远像甜甜圈

牵你的手还是有点紧张

看你双眼怎么好好说话

这次真的下定决心

鼓起勇气拥抱你

让我们的爱连成完美圈圈

曾经怀疑自己是否能保护你

是你让我看见世界美丽

是你带我走向温暖生命

因为有你

我的天空放晴

紧握住你的手

一起迎接未来十八岁的蔚蓝

环绕永远的爱

却又舍不得说再见(说再见)

是否能够继续

因为你能让我真正充满勇气

有你才可以真正面对自己(呵…)

一起面对未来十八岁的蔚蓝

两人一起拥抱永远的爱

IMY = I miss you

Boring holidays ~
wokeup at 12 somethings..called her..
someone answered the phone..
but cant hear anythings..after tat i heard :
'' 1, 2, 3, 4 .... [ music started ] '' lol
she is in her band.. =.=
i wait until 1.55 then called her again..
finally, she answered it ~! she told me
in gurney now..phone not yet reload..so i must wait ~
wait until she reach home then called me..
it's difficult man ! cos i knw i will miss her..IMY lots !
after i ate my brunch..feel sleepy*
i slept n wake up at 5 somethings..lol
go n bath n called her again..she is eating..
nevermine..wait wait wait ~~ i use the whole day for wait her..
finally, at 930 we only can chat in msn ~
Woo ~ happy of it ..smile*
she told me her family beside
we just can write short-cut : IMY= i miss you..lol
n maybe friday her sister there..
haizh ~~ i wish * WISH NOONE THERE !!
i just wanna to be with her ~
hope we could..
IMY !! remember it ~

end here
=)

you are the only one in my heart

today i m moody ~
first, because when i reach school..
she stil had her band practice..
that means i still have to wait her..haizh..
i wait wait wait...
Finally ! she finish her band already !! Woo ~!
damn happy ! I can see her, hold her hand, and hug her now!
hahahax !! we sweet sweet thr..
after dat, I always call her come out..cos i miss her lots !
and the most important is : TODAY IS THE LAST DAY !
Why ?? so fast..1 week u knw..
i hate that ! if i cant see her..it is Non of meaning in my life ! lol
but nevermine..although that..
but at least we still can contact ..n maybe i can go out ! hee*
What can i do ?? just wait the time pass over...
Dun talk abt dis ! toda Pn.peh find me..
she said gv me a chance..so just demerit me 2 marks !! Wohoo ~~
So happy abt it !! i no need to get the third blacklist !
and today i write a letter for her..
hope she will take care her body in dis holidays..and i will too !
dun go n cut your hand anymore..Okay??
haizh...MISS-ing her ! wanna tell her that..
YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE IN MY HEART !!
i wont leave you ~~
dont think too much kay ??
Loving you *

Thanks for be waiting for me

I am comfused..i do know what should i do..
everytime i will because of small things n angry her..
n everytime she also just keep quite..
just like today, when i reached school..
i feel she treat me as transparents..din come n talk with me..
just like dat , i angry her again..lol
I know i should change..but i need some times..
sorry~! but at least today i gt try to..
I gt tell myself : stop doing dat..ti liang her...
so finally..we din quarell..
but i know i already hurt her deeply..
i need some times to change..
she tell me, She dont care, she will wait me...
and i knw she already did many things..
many many of it is because of me..
i m happy to hear dat..but i m comfused..
sometime i will tell her,
[ Or we be back friend more better ]
then she will thought i din have feeling to her..
so simply say it..
actually i m nt dat meaning...
actually i love you much..
if oneday i need to giveup u..I Cant Do It honestly..
But why i will say dat ??
because i don't want to hurt u n make u dissapointed to me..
but today u tell me dat u will wait me..
then i respect ur choice..
n i wish i will success to make it..
i will let u see the result... =)
thanks for trusting me !
about jying..today she angry me..
maybe cos of sometime i forget her n put her beside..
sorry about that..!
although u din tell me, but i knw the reason..
i try dont to do it kay ??
Sorry ~ n just knw when we finish talking in phone..
I cried..suddenly, my tears drop down..
in our friendship, it is many probelm there..
i hope i will solve it..
when i was sad..she is nt thr...
she din hear my phone..i knw dat she sleep already..
but..i really need her..
i miss her voice,i miss she tell me : dun cry daddy..
I MISS HER much !! wanna hug u nw..
haizhh...tmr going morning session..
need to sleep early..n i will drink more water..
I will remember it !! kay?? i got hear ur advice..
going to close my computer..
have a nice day..i miss u much !
Nitex !

我想对你说。。。

我知道，
一向无理取闹的我，总是让你很无奈。。
一向霸道的我，总是让你心痛。。。
不过今天你告诉我，你哭了。。
顿时间，我清醒了。。
没错！每一次的我，
总是无理取闹的骂你。。
每一次吵架，我总是丢你在一旁，
让你承受着痛苦。。
冷静了下来，我才明白我的过错。。
我不该那样对你！！
不过，这一切还来得及吗？？
就算是说不完的道歉，也换不回你所受过的伤。。
今天我醒了。。真正的醒了！
以前我对你说过的话，
对你许下的承诺。。我还是办不到！
不过今天，我想对你说。。
我会改！！
我该体谅你，我该包容你！
爱一个人，不是这样的吗？？
我不想因为这样，而失去你。。。
我宁愿改变我自己，来换回你的心。。
不晓得我对你说这番话，
是否还来得及。。
是否你会相信。。。
不过我还是会尽力做到最好！
我知道这是一直留在你心里最想看到的。。
如果给我重来，
我宁愿选择的，是以前的我。。
单纯的我，毫无脾气的我，体谅你的我，
不过这必然是不可能的。。。
没关系！我会因你而改变！
试着别再让你为我而哭了。。
深深的告诉你，
对不起！！！
只要你还喜欢我，
我还是会永远永远的爱你！！
I LOVE YOU

揭开的真面目

真正的你，直到今天已完完全全表露出来了！
在你的眼里。。我们到底是什么 ？？
陪伴你的工具吗？你有珍惜过我们的友谊吗？？
扪心自问吧！
在你眼中，没有友谊！
朋友。。只是让你利用！让你糟蹋！
你认为现在的你已找到真正的朋友吗？？在我们面前嚣张。。
哈哈！白痴，真是白痴！
现在的你，只是关闭自己在一个无人的箱子里，
永远只有黑暗。。
永远只有你对。。
永远无法接受自己的过错 ！
这次吵架，错的是我！道歉也是我的事情！
因为我珍惜我和她的友谊。。
如果朋友之间争吵，需要说出如此难听的话。。
那一直以来，你根本没把我们当朋友！
我知道！你一定是在暗骂：
是你们把我当代替品的！但，你知道真相吗？？
好！我告诉你 ！！！
当天洁莹只是说：在我的心目中，你已代替了racheal的位置。。
她骂的，是我！
不是你！林岳帧 ！！！请你别对号入座 ！！
不过还是得谢谢上天，让我认识你
让我知道什么是双面。。。
让我尝试过让人利用的滋味。。
你今天如此对我们，没关系。。对我们并无吃亏。。
但请你记住 ！！
总有一天。。你也会得到你应该有的报应的！！
你真正的真面目！
只有那些被你利用过的，才会了解！
在别人面前，你的戏中戏实在演得太真了！！
我写了出来，也不会怕你讨厌我。。。
洁莹能忍的，不代表我能忍！
请你认清对象！
你记住，人不犯我。。我不犯人！
但是一旦我忍无可忍。。那些得罪我的，
我一一跟她算清来！！
面子不是别人给的，而是在于你自己！
超越了限度，面子也没得给！！
看在洁莹的份上，我忍你！
继续扮你的无辜，
继续暗骂我们，
继续扮演你的角色，
继续存在在自己的世界吧 ！
不过，伪装的笑容。。请在我面前消失！
揭开的真面目，林岳帧！！！

She cry ??..

today is a boring day~
the whole day jus study study study !
dat stupid tcher demerit me..grr...TMD !
and i feel ..
many faker around me..
they can pretend like NOTHING in front anther pple..
they say many good words to u as posible as they can!!
in behind ..
they backstabb us !! FAKE !
what things did they will get ??
somemore pple acc them ??
or somemore pple support them ???
i doknw ..
whetever ! dun talk abt dis !
she is going tuition after skul..
but i feel dat her fren like angry us..they din talk to us..
why ?? so i call her to ask them..
after dat..when i go thr.. [goodall]
i saw..SHE CRY !! why ???
they tell me the reason..so i comfort her..
n gv her food to eat..
i knw she wun eat when she is sad..
when i reach home..she phone me..
she told me dat she gt eat n fren back with them d..
GOOD !! hahaha !
i m happy to hear dat ..
at least nw she is nt alone d.. =)
hope they will trust she can change..
n i hope too ~!
hmm..miss her hug ~~
LOL

end here

Our Friendship

today when i reach skul..yvonne call me go Goodall..
so me, esther, yvonne n yueh zheng go thr..
when we sit down..we din say anythings..just keep quite..~~
after 5 min..i saw her tears drop down..OMG !
then , yvonne help me to explain many things..
after finished quarell..i apologize to esther..
is my fault..i knw..mayb dis few days i already put u bside..
But i din feel it..i m stupid~~
SOrry .. i don't hope dat our frenship will bcum like dat..rily SORRY !!
but at least at the last period..we fren back..WHEE *
I M HAPPY !! but yz like dun like..haizhh..stil cant settle it ??
but if i should make a choice..i will choose Esther..
cos our frenship already 1 years sumthings..
sorry ! mayb will hurt u..but dis is a truth..
NOw, i m comfused ! i should hear whose wan ?? all double face !!
haizhh..dun think dat probelm already..
today she cant owaz come out..I MISS her..LOL
i call her cum out..she go pass up things..GRrr ~! nvm la..
n after skul..she gave me a letter ..
i m scaring..cos everytime she gv me a letter..
is talk abt break ar,b fren ar, dis such of things..BUt luckily..NOT !
hahaha..she jus told me tmr she is going band pratice..
FOR HALF DAY ~ haizhh..wait her lar .. =)
n now i only knw..i m so scare she leave me..love lots !
hope her fren will trust her la..
[NO MORE BLUFFING] ~ kay ??
miss her lots !!
going reply her msg..
NITEX !!

end here

Quarel ..

today when i reach skul..
i m bad mood..
coz she is in her band practice..
after dat, i wait wait wait ...
FINALLY !
recess time d ! WOHOO ~~
i can see her already ! yeah !!
but we jus talk a while..then quarel d..
i damn pek cek ! n my head very pain..
she went meeting la..keep her thgs la..
take her bag la !!
GRR !!
then i pull her shirt..IT is TEARED !
walao..then we quarell quarell..
haizhhh....
so stupid la me..
i not said i wan to rang her d meh ??
why i do dat ???
but at least after dat we din quarel d..
n tmr she wan to go gp..
wif jiamei..wad can i do ??
nvm la..she d promise jiamei..
i hope dat tmr she can cum n find me..
n zhu dong phone me..
haiz..miss her lots !!
sunday she is going to KL !
hope she can get bec her phone..cos it is confiscate by her aunt !!
LOL ! hope she can call me ..
i wait her phone..
dun talk bout dis la...
my exam result !? TMD !
my geo n KH fail ! FAIL ! u knw...
jus bm pass nia..
NO ! my dad will kill me ! haizzh
do knw la !
n now we just can chat in MSN ..
i cant hear her voice..
and please ! i din on with her kay !!
pls dun simply say me..
i knw just nw i said somethings wrong to u all..
sorry ! i hope dat u all won't angry.. =)
tomorrow i go to esther house ! WOO ~
n i suggest to make spaghetti ! haha !
dun laugh me..i will try to do it !
n tday..she is sick..
i hope she will eat medicine dat i gv her..
drink more water la !
dun say i din tell u kay ??
haha..u knw wad i mean rite ??
kay..nitex everyone !
miss her ~~ !

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