May i love you?

~Love you, Love you, may i love you
Tell me what to do~
love you is hard and difficultly.
Sometimes, There is some happiness there.
I am appreciate of it.
but Sometimes, you leave me alone.
My heart is Too much of painfull ...
I cant stand it anymore.
MAY I LOVE YOU ? should i love you?
i don't know..
Everydays i waiting for you,
waiting for your answer.
again and again.
maybe it is hurt , BUT at least i know what'r you thinking . .
maybe, i should put it down. .
don't to think of it evermore . . .

It never happern again

this few days LY dint talk to me.
she is totally different now.how?
before that, she is still talk with me,sit with me,
always accompany me when i am need.
but now, It never happern again.
issit she already know the truth?
issit i tell her the truth is more better?
at least, i wont suffer like now.
i am confused. what should i do?can anyone tell me?
all the people is not beside me. =(
and somemore,
this few days i go to bed at 3 midnight. minimum.
but i am not feeling tired.?
i wish that monday is coming.

end here.
3.30 am =(

I love the show

today i dint go to school..feeling not well..
and my eyes are painfull.. =(
so, i am bored in my house..nothing to do...
i wish that somebody can bring me out..BUT..
i just can stay at home because i am sick..!
fine! i play the show - You are my destiny.
nice show, i love it! X)
i watch until 19 episode..( i think )
it is so touch man! i cry...T.T what the hell....
my heart is painfull., dont know why...
maybe i memories back last time things..
i hurt her so much..so bad..
but i am okay now..stil feeling boring..
and i put the medicine on my eye..
hope will faster recover it..kekezz =)
mui mui, ......
what are you doing now?
hihi ! stop here.

遗憾

从敌人变朋友, 从朋友变情人，再从情人变朋友..
这段日子里，我们分分和和.. 为的是什么?
这一次的分离，是真正的，彻彻底底的分离..
我跟她，哥哥与妹妹的关系..
真的能如此简单，如此潇洒放开吗?
无论我愿不愿意，我还是得接受它..
她想放下她，但她的心里很痛，很辛苦!
在我的心里，我也很难受..
我宁愿她继续爱着另一个她，
寻找她想要的快乐，也不愿看她如此辛苦...
如果有机会让我重来，
我也愿意提出分手的是她，
让我独自去慢慢的接受它，也不愿让她难过..
因为我知道，只有一方变心，
我们才会彻底的放弃...
现在的我还奢望什么..? 强逼自己放下她?
放下一个人不容易..无须强逼自己，
顺其自然的..随着时间冲淡它..
占据了她的心一年，也应该是足够了吧..?
算了，我也不会再去理会了!
一切只留下遗憾吧....

the J is not me

J is only for her...
after i read this, i very happy~!
she is writing me...! i cant describe my feeling..
so, can i find a reason not to trust her?? i cant....
i totally trust her..but she do that to me..
the J is not me! is another people..! why?
why she dont tell me earlier...?
is it i din beside you..so you find another lover?
i doknow...i just let you go....
hear someone said..the J also got feeling to you..
so? now you are not belongs to me..
what can i do? i cant do anythings...
and non of my business..
nowadays you are totally change..
you close my phone..dont want to talk with me anymore..
because you have HER..your lover~
who am i? i am your ex-lover...
so, just try to giveup you...
take care..if you have some problem can find me..
i will try my best to help you..
i will stand on your side helping you all the way..
although just FRIEND..
thats all..take care anyway..
i dont mind it anymore~dont need sorry...
not your fault actually~
add oil ziqin!~ i will always support you~
my dearest friend~ =)

This few days~

haizhh..many things happern!
first, i transfer school! it is so unbearable for me! wth!
but...i still must accept it! >.<
second, me and her had some problem there..
maybe breakup is good for us..
i dont know wanna say what..just let her go~
but this few days we still cant always contact..
sometimes i got went back school find her and all my friends..
damn miss them! they cry~aiyoo dont cry arr!
we still can go out right? just like today,
just came back from esther house..
we play there,we chat there,we snap photo there,we eat pizza there....
we having our fun there~we having many memories there~
but i know our friendship still can continue!~
forever friend! i remember it~!
somemore, about her...i damn miss her this few days!
before that we always quarrel because of some small things...
we have many times there,
but we dont know how to appreciate it....
keep on doing that wrong things again and again!
but now...! now i seldom meet her...
and maybe final exam is coming..she cant hang out with me..sigh*
so, what can i do? just keep on miss her..
and continue wait for the day that i cant see her..
now at heng ee..i am fine there!
thanks for all my friends support~ ^^
and you said, we will continue loving each other...
unill that day we really giveup right?
i know...i try to... =(
nitex everyone*

Sorry, i did the wrong things

Sorry..i did the wrong things again..
i am too pek cek today..
everytime when i hope you will stay beside me
accompany me..maybe sometimes you had
somethings to do..but i always cant control myself..
i hate you put me alone..
i know you dint..but it keep on appearing in my mind..
and i know you are helping me and chingchiet..
but i just want to be with you more..
sorry..i know i couldn't do that..
because you also cant use up all your time
to accompany me one person only, right?.....
i know that is my fault...
and today you haven't recover yet..
so i know the reason, and i won't angry what you scold just now..
i know you are not properly to say that..
nevermine la..just forget it kay?
hope that tomorrow we won't quarrel again..
and i know i should let you freedom..
i try dont to angry you when you have somethings to do..
and when you free, must go my class find me ya~!
i am waiting you~ehehe^^
about another her...
sorry again..i know before i already promise you..
but saturday i leave you alone...
i know you still mad on me..
what should i do now ?...i doknow..
and today you dint wait me at bus-stop..
maybe i already know the answer..
and very sorry to both of you, i did the wrong things again..
haizhh haizhhh...
who can help me?
waiting her reply..LOLs..
end here#

没有见到她的一天里..

今天我提早到校, 到了那边...没人........(呼呼~~)
算了算了..过去对面买喉糖给她..
我今天准备了四样东西: 盐水，退热贴，喉糖，vitamin-c...
这全都是要给她的，不会觉得我很白痴吧 (汗~~....)
过后看到agnes..她看起来很闷...
问了我一个问题，一个很难回答的问题...
[ 怎样忘记一个人...?? ]
找另一个? 这只是欺骗自己而已...
逃避? 转校? 逃避并不能解决问题..最重要是你的心怎样想...
面对她 ? 心里只想着她只是朋友，别无关系，你能吗??
她沉默着.....给予我，其实我也不知道.....
之后看见了她...( 她?? ) 怎么会在这里!??
她病了，很辛苦...所以提早回家...
什么!!? 还没见她超过三分钟咧...!! (轰! 晴天霹雳........)
Walaooo ! 算了算了! 她姐在旁边...
唯有交给她那袋子..吩咐她好事情..就这样........她上车了!!
我的心里顿时抽痛了一下! 眼泪也流下来....
我很想她 ! ( 唉唉~~....)
agnes 安慰我...也对! 其实她很辛苦了...我必须体谅她...!
[ 死KUKUM还没来...!~walao! ]
[ 哈哈哈...对啦! ] 我们笑了...但心里还很难受....
等到esther 和yvonne来...
我们回校去mppp...
但是~~!~~ 某些人在那里...洁莹的脸也变了..(errrrr....)
算了算了! 不要乱....转去食堂..
但agnes不肯..其实我们知道为什么....
点完名，去拿校刊....WALAOOOO !! 什么人...??
我的照片....(呕~~~! )
唉....回到班，每一次都会跑去找她...
但今天...我的心又痛了~~! 打开校刊第一个看见的是她....
哈哈! 瞒开心的~~至少看到她可爱的样子....
今天一整天很闷...借到电话打给她，她没听~~
死鬼又敲我的门喊sport check ! 吓到我..快点丢电话给她....!
回到班看他们收东西...几好笑一下!
[ 数到三! 有没有人的东西要收 !? ]
[ 呐呐呐! 这边这边 !!~ ]
[ 没有了哈 ?? ]
白痴的一班 ( 汗~~!.........)
但到最后还是没有sport check...而是中四的!! (这才是爆点 !! )
回到家很开心! 打给她....但之后她很快就睡了~~
不过没关系啦! 她很累了.....
( 我没生气! 放心~! 你要好好照顾身体啊! 记得吃药噢~)(乖乖~........)
没有她的一天里，真的很难受.....
我没经过她的班，经过了，也是无谓的.....
我终于明白我被gantung的五天里...她是多么痛苦!
明天有去jaring...又是我一个人~ ( 悲哀悲哀~~........)
好了! 要睡了! goodnight :-*

我学会了:人不为己，天诛地灭

今天到了学校，jying说要去chicky..
有点犹豫..算了啦！应该不会有事的...
去到那边，等lynjen他们来..
我有点饿..也应该用贪吃来形容吧 !!^^
就和jying叫了一份rice set..
等到他们来，首先是冷场..(呼呼~~~~~)
agnes看起来也不是很开心，偶尔挤出勉强的笑容...
我跟jying尽快打圆场...谈天谈到一半时...
yvonne不小心说了一句不该说的话..
应该说是我误会吧..(不好意思~不好意思.....)
我就假假问她要不要点东西..
到最后才发现是一场误会..既然说出了破绽...
唯有将事实告诉她~ 她吓倒了!
算了算了! 走回校排队...
回到学校很闷！第一节老师没来..
我一个人坐在门口，唱了一首又一首的歌..
过了一阵子，看看手表也要到点2点了..
哈哈! 好开心 ( woo ~~! )
band终于完了!! 可以去找她了^^好想念她o~
接下来的节都很闷..虽然她有一直走过我的班~
她每一次都会对我笑笑 =) ( 好可爱~)
过后我们被老师赶了出来..算咯!! 出就出!
我们很索性的走出去..总共有十几个..
我们围在一起谈天..笑到很大声！老师也出来骂我们..
[ 你们可以安静吗 !? ]
[ (没睬她).........(还在讲)]
等她进去教书了，我们大骂：
[ 这样里面的那位..你可以安静吗 ？？ ]
哈哈哈！爽到.........~!!!
唯有一个人很down..我们都没察觉到~~
之后她写信给我，我们四个就这样吵起来....
她不爽我们，我们也不爽她!
算了算了! 让一步..我主动跟她讲话回......
放学后，她交给我一封信~
里面写着....(诶，无可奉告!!) 哈哈!
她叫我别生气她，因为放学后她有补习..我必须等她call我..
我当然不会啦! 我一定会等你的啦!
回到家做完我的东西，等她....( haihsss...悲哀悲哀~~)
终于电话响了! 我跟他拿来听...她告诉我她病了!
喉咙很痛，还发烧! 乖乖哦~~
你一定要照着我的话去做喔!.....
1 买100-plus来喝
2 多喝水，多休息(不要喝冰的)
3 不要吃煎炸的东西
4 如果天气很冷，要穿jacket 哦
记得记得!! 要做到的啊~!!
tam了她睡觉~心里还很想她~~不过没关系啦! 她很累了...
去开电脑online...jying 告诉我她的事情..
其实我希望她也不要太生气..
有这样的社会，就有这样的人..
朋友不一定是永远的，
有的可以背叛你，在你背后做一些你不知道的事情..
有的可以为了利益不择手段，甚至牺牲多年来的友情..
这一些人..我见的很多..
其实真正的朋友在你遇到困难的瓶颈时，
会尽他们的能力去帮助你...
并不会丢你而去..
但现实的生活里，知心友并不多..
人不为己，天诛地灭..这句话我学到了..
谢谢你们教我成熟~!
但幸亏,至少现在我遇到的...是一位真正的知心友..
以前我不懂得友情..是她骂醒了我!
谢谢你，洁莹! 你对我的好，我会记住..
我希望你不要难过，永远记住..
这只是一个过程而已..
下一秒会发生什么事，想必你我也不知道...
好了写到这里..唉......又想起她!!
希望她尽快好起来，照顾好自己的身体!
我爱你! 晚安各位~~!

今时今日的我们...

没有写blog的这几个星期..发生好多好多事..
一切都不是我们能预料之中的....
这几天因为gantung的事情，我们都要稍微小心...
就算连我是否能跟她联络，也成问题....
这段日子, 说是容易...但确实是很辛苦!
我不知道应不应该放弃....
但每一次我的脑海里出现[ 放弃 ]两个字...
她都会过来安慰我..我又振作了起来...
今时今日的她真的改变了许多....
以前的她,不断的伤害我....当时我们的感情很恶劣...
周围的朋友都叫我放弃....
...[ jinyu, 放弃啦! 她都摆明玩你的!! ]
...[ jinyu ! 醒啦 ! 你到底几时才要醒!? ]
...[ jinyu ! 算了啦 ! 找比她更好的 ! ]...........
在我的心里, 我想的是什么 ?
[ 不会的!不会的...她会很爱我的! 她有苦衷的...!!
因为我还爱她，我不肯相信!
一次又一次! 终于有一天....我受够了!!
我不想再爱她了!! 真的好辛苦!
我为她哭了那么多次...她又怎么想??
算了....彻底的放弃她.............
今天的她, 是另一个她....
她爱我的全部, 完全体谅我,完全顺从我...
反而是我，却一直伤害她！
怎么了? 我忘了怎么疼爱一个人了吗 ??
我忘了吗 ? ? ?
也是她，又再次让我感觉到好久没有感受到的爱...
让我又再次放开心胸，去爱一个人...
这是我唯一的赌注...假设输了，就真的彻彻底底的输了!
我做了最后的决定....因为至少我不会后悔..
但今时今日的我很开心!
我们又再次的开始! 再次的更爱对方..
虽然我们不能一直联络，但我们的感情不会变淡....
每一次一有机会通电话, 我们都会很开心...
似有很多很多的话想要告诉对方...
而我也答应她，会改一改我的脾气..
毕竟我的脾气不是每个人都受得了的^^
脾气暴躁时，会无缘无故的大声骂她，伤害她!
我知道.......真的对不起!
但这几天, 我有尝试去忍耐，去体谅她.....
至少我做到了一点点, 我不会沾沾自喜..而会更努力的改变!
有时的她会问我 ：你会辛苦吗？
我会感到开心，会感到一丝的温暖....
[ 不会！这是我的坏习惯，我会去克服它！！ ]
你告诉我的 ，我还记得：
[ 虽然我们不能见面，但两颗心还紧紧地扣在一起！]
我听了很感动，也得到了不少鼓励！
谢谢你！！我爱你！
重没想过我们会重新在一起~
我会加油的！！
我们一起努力！！～～

亲情，爱情，友情。。

我知错了，我不再多用电话。。
我多么想她都好我也忍了下来。。
在学校，我想尽办法来补回我的分数。。
我不再扣分，我考好我的成绩
只为了你们的一句：你没用了！
我不相信！我改！！
就当是为了你们，就当时为了自己。。
但是到了最后，我终于知道在你们心里
无论我做得怎么好。。原来也是零
电话单里，出现RM160这个字。。
之前是四百多令吉。。在我的心里，我很开心！
我认为我做到了，虽然这只是个开始
但在你们眼里，根本视无存在。。
你们也一样骂我，问我那是必要的吗？
我傻了！顿时我无话可说。。
我回答你们：我已经尽量改着了。。
但最终，你们却骂我做错事还顶嘴！
我承认，我变了！我变得叛逆。。
你们对我说过的，我都听到
但为什么你们不能想想看，其实我也有在进步了？
我希望的，只是你们简单的一句：
你在改变了。。很好！
但我的希望落空，我开始往反方面想。。
我开始又打电话，但在学校我还是保持着一样。。
我很怕！怕学校老师complain, 你们又再骂我了！
只有我的妈妈，只有她鼓励我。。
在我最伤心时，你告诉我：
[ 无论你变好还是变坏，你永远都是我的女儿，
有什么问题你可以告诉我，因为我们永远都是两母女！]
这句话，依然清晰地留在我的脑海里。。
因为你的鼓励，我又振作起来。。
希望你们再相信我。。相信我会改。。
但还有吗？？还有机会吗？？？我不知道。。
至于她，我们可能有一段时间，会有点辛苦。。
希望你会等我。。很快的。。
我会证明给他们看，也证明给你看！
我们一起，度过这一次，好吗？
不要对我说：是我连累你。。你并没有。。。
这是我的选择，明白吗？？
我还是会爱着你！
洁莹，我知道你为了我好。。
不过我真的很难做决定，可能两方面，我都要顾及。。
谢谢你！你对我的好，我会记住 =)
亲情，爱情，友情
我需要时间，再一次证明给你们看！
haihh...
现在的我，真的很想念她！
明天的比赛，你一定要加油！！
虽然我不在那里，
不过我还是会在你心里，支持你！！
对了！告诉你一句：
生日快乐！
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
今天是我们的830!
但我们都忘了！没关系，快乐只在我们的心中。。
你要等我，很快的。。会很快的。。。。。
再说一次：我爱你！！
eemmuuakssss !!
=)

I don't care about distance, i just care about u!*

today i got tuition, i miss her lots..but i stil must go
she gave me letter, it was so sweet..i love it !*
she told me dat tomorow band's things..
ya ! tomorrow she is going her band until 2 sumthings,
study for two period, then she go back already..
after dat she stil must go for her tuition..
so i must wait her phone until 10
nevermine , i already promise her
that i won't angry..so i din..i must 'ti liang' her
she know that i will miss her,
so write the letter for me.. =)
finally wait until 945..finish tuition..
woo ~! damn happy ! finally i can go back home n call her !!
but..some things bad happern--
my auntie forgot to come and fetch us..
so we must wait her..when she came
the time already show 1015 ! WTF* i m rush !
argh !! in my heart, i guess..
i guess she already sleep..but i wish she will wait me..
finally reached home , 1034
(... do u know why i will so remember abt the time ?
because i am so miss her n so panic abt it ! grr !...)
FINE ! i called her .....
but she din answered..what ?? i tried many times..
but she stil din answered..i just heard that stupid voicemail !
then i phone her house , her aunt told me
'' ziqin arh ? ziqin shui jiao le lorr... " =.=
What the....haizhh , why she din wait me ??
suddenly i become moody
my heart was so pain..i m so miss her.. ='(
my tears wanna drop down..
but i control it , open the computer..
she din write blog , din reply friendster comment
hmm..i think she is too tired, so very early sleep d..
i knw her 'pattern' de..
n maybe tomorrow she must wakeup at 4
nvermine..i do my things n try dun to miss her..
but cannot , my heart just keep on miss-ing her...
suddenly , the phone rang ~~
1st time, is my mom =.=
2nd time, again her
3rd time......i cant hear anythings..
the sound was so soft , but i know...IS HER !!
her sound was so sleepy..
although we just talk a while , ( cos she sleep again )...
but it is enough to me.. =) i m happy !!
this few days she is busy for her band..but i din angry
I dont care about distance, i just care about you !
although we apart , but i stil will wait you~
u are always in my heart..*
nitex n sweetdream ~
IMY .....

我不想得到残忍的结果，你愿意等我吗？

可能有一段时间，我们不能像以前一样
每一天，每一时刻都在联络。。
每一晚我们都必须等。。等到临睡前才能通电话
这样的日子对我来说，实在很辛苦，
不过我还能做什么？？
我会因为这段感情而坚持下去。。我不会退缩
就算有多么的想你，我也只会隐藏在内心的最深处
因为我知道，我不能因而放弃 ！
因为爱一个人，需要付出代价的。。
选择了你我并不后悔～
不过在我心里，我最害怕也最不敢面对的。。是你！
因为我不晓得，你是否还会等我。。
因为我不晓得，你几时会放弃。。
因为我知道，对我们来说是很艰难的事情。。很累很累。。
你会等我吗？？请你想清楚。。
我不想以后的你告诉我，你不想等了。。
这对我来说，是一个残忍的结果。。
我想得到的，并不多。。
只是希望此时此刻的我们，会因为这次的考验
将彼此将近一年的感情拉得更近，更稳固～
你愿意吗？你愿意等我吗？？
无论结果是如何，我还是会等你！！
可能爱情真的会让人失去自我。。
等待着你～

Can you believe me ??

Can you believe that i miss you?
Can you believe that i care about you?
Can you believe that i need you?
Can you believe that I Love You ??
Can you believe...?
I miss you ,
i miss you all the time..
i miss your voice
i miss your hug
i miss your smile
i miss you tell me I MISS YOU
when i am miss-ing you
I care about you ,
i keep on calling you to drink water..
i scare u will sick..i knw u hate medicine..
when i din beside you..
would you take care yourself ?
I need you ,
i need you to share my happiness
i need you to care about me
i need you to comfort me when
my tears drop down cause of nothing
i need you to tell me i love you
i need you when i need you ...
I love you ,
i love your everythings
i love your every hug and your every kiss
i love you tell me i love you
loving you din have any reason
i won't let it go
but the first things is...
Can you believe me ??
would you believe me ?
i am waiting your answer....

with love

甜甜圈

甜甜圈

天天非常想你的甜点

飞过城市的边缘

降落爱你的终点

想念互道晚安的每一天

却又舍不得说再见

你的笑那么甜

我的直觉就是那么坚决

不怕有暴风圈

因为你是我最晴朗的大晴天

爱要你牵我的手每一天

我要非常用心感觉

因为爱你

才是我最后最美丽的句点

喜欢在你的肩膀盘旋

习惯两个人的世界

才让我的心永远像甜甜圈

牵你的手还是有点紧张

看你双眼怎么好好说话

这次真的下定决心

鼓起勇气拥抱你

让我们的爱连成完美圈圈

曾经怀疑自己是否能保护你

是你让我看见世界美丽

是你带我走向温暖生命

因为有你

我的天空放晴

紧握住你的手

一起迎接未来十八岁的蔚蓝

环绕永远的爱

却又舍不得说再见(说再见)

是否能够继续

因为你能让我真正充满勇气

有你才可以真正面对自己(呵…)

一起面对未来十八岁的蔚蓝

两人一起拥抱永远的爱

IMY = I miss you

Boring holidays ~
wokeup at 12 somethings..called her..
someone answered the phone..
but cant hear anythings..after tat i heard :
'' 1, 2, 3, 4 .... [ music started ] '' lol
she is in her band.. =.=
i wait until 1.55 then called her again..
finally, she answered it ~! she told me
in gurney now..phone not yet reload..so i must wait ~
wait until she reach home then called me..
it's difficult man ! cos i knw i will miss her..IMY lots !
after i ate my brunch..feel sleepy*
i slept n wake up at 5 somethings..lol
go n bath n called her again..she is eating..
nevermine..wait wait wait ~~ i use the whole day for wait her..
finally, at 930 we only can chat in msn ~
Woo ~ happy of it ..smile*
she told me her family beside
we just can write short-cut : IMY= i miss you..lol
n maybe friday her sister there..
haizh ~~ i wish * WISH NOONE THERE !!
i just wanna to be with her ~
hope we could..
IMY !! remember it ~

end here
=)

you are the only one in my heart

today i m moody ~
first, because when i reach school..
she stil had her band practice..
that means i still have to wait her..haizh..
i wait wait wait...
Finally ! she finish her band already !! Woo ~!
damn happy ! I can see her, hold her hand, and hug her now!
hahahax !! we sweet sweet thr..
after dat, I always call her come out..cos i miss her lots !
and the most important is : TODAY IS THE LAST DAY !
Why ?? so fast..1 week u knw..
i hate that ! if i cant see her..it is Non of meaning in my life ! lol
but nevermine..although that..
but at least we still can contact ..n maybe i can go out ! hee*
What can i do ?? just wait the time pass over...
Dun talk abt dis ! toda Pn.peh find me..
she said gv me a chance..so just demerit me 2 marks !! Wohoo ~~
So happy abt it !! i no need to get the third blacklist !
and today i write a letter for her..
hope she will take care her body in dis holidays..and i will too !
dun go n cut your hand anymore..Okay??
haizh...MISS-ing her ! wanna tell her that..
YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE IN MY HEART !!
i wont leave you ~~
dont think too much kay ??
Loving you *

Thanks for be waiting for me

I am comfused..i do know what should i do..
everytime i will because of small things n angry her..
n everytime she also just keep quite..
just like today, when i reached school..
i feel she treat me as transparents..din come n talk with me..
just like dat , i angry her again..lol
I know i should change..but i need some times..
sorry~! but at least today i gt try to..
I gt tell myself : stop doing dat..ti liang her...
so finally..we din quarell..
but i know i already hurt her deeply..
i need some times to change..
she tell me, She dont care, she will wait me...
and i knw she already did many things..
many many of it is because of me..
i m happy to hear dat..but i m comfused..
sometime i will tell her,
[ Or we be back friend more better ]
then she will thought i din have feeling to her..
so simply say it..
actually i m nt dat meaning...
actually i love you much..
if oneday i need to giveup u..I Cant Do It honestly..
But why i will say dat ??
because i don't want to hurt u n make u dissapointed to me..
but today u tell me dat u will wait me..
then i respect ur choice..
n i wish i will success to make it..
i will let u see the result... =)
thanks for trusting me !
about jying..today she angry me..
maybe cos of sometime i forget her n put her beside..
sorry about that..!
although u din tell me, but i knw the reason..
i try dont to do it kay ??
Sorry ~ n just knw when we finish talking in phone..
I cried..suddenly, my tears drop down..
in our friendship, it is many probelm there..
i hope i will solve it..
when i was sad..she is nt thr...
she din hear my phone..i knw dat she sleep already..
but..i really need her..
i miss her voice,i miss she tell me : dun cry daddy..
I MISS HER much !! wanna hug u nw..
haizhh...tmr going morning session..
need to sleep early..n i will drink more water..
I will remember it !! kay?? i got hear ur advice..
going to close my computer..
have a nice day..i miss u much !
Nitex !

我想对你说。。。

我知道，
一向无理取闹的我，总是让你很无奈。。
一向霸道的我，总是让你心痛。。。
不过今天你告诉我，你哭了。。
顿时间，我清醒了。。
没错！每一次的我，
总是无理取闹的骂你。。
每一次吵架，我总是丢你在一旁，
让你承受着痛苦。。
冷静了下来，我才明白我的过错。。
我不该那样对你！！
不过，这一切还来得及吗？？
就算是说不完的道歉，也换不回你所受过的伤。。
今天我醒了。。真正的醒了！
以前我对你说过的话，
对你许下的承诺。。我还是办不到！
不过今天，我想对你说。。
我会改！！
我该体谅你，我该包容你！
爱一个人，不是这样的吗？？
我不想因为这样，而失去你。。。
我宁愿改变我自己，来换回你的心。。
不晓得我对你说这番话，
是否还来得及。。
是否你会相信。。。
不过我还是会尽力做到最好！
我知道这是一直留在你心里最想看到的。。
如果给我重来，
我宁愿选择的，是以前的我。。
单纯的我，毫无脾气的我，体谅你的我，
不过这必然是不可能的。。。
没关系！我会因你而改变！
试着别再让你为我而哭了。。
深深的告诉你，
对不起！！！
只要你还喜欢我，
我还是会永远永远的爱你！！
I LOVE YOU

揭开的真面目

真正的你，直到今天已完完全全表露出来了！
在你的眼里。。我们到底是什么 ？？
陪伴你的工具吗？你有珍惜过我们的友谊吗？？
扪心自问吧！
在你眼中，没有友谊！
朋友。。只是让你利用！让你糟蹋！
你认为现在的你已找到真正的朋友吗？？在我们面前嚣张。。
哈哈！白痴，真是白痴！
现在的你，只是关闭自己在一个无人的箱子里，
永远只有黑暗。。
永远只有你对。。
永远无法接受自己的过错 ！
这次吵架，错的是我！道歉也是我的事情！
因为我珍惜我和她的友谊。。
如果朋友之间争吵，需要说出如此难听的话。。
那一直以来，你根本没把我们当朋友！
我知道！你一定是在暗骂：
是你们把我当代替品的！但，你知道真相吗？？
好！我告诉你 ！！！
当天洁莹只是说：在我的心目中，你已代替了racheal的位置。。
她骂的，是我！
不是你！林岳帧 ！！！请你别对号入座 ！！
不过还是得谢谢上天，让我认识你
让我知道什么是双面。。。
让我尝试过让人利用的滋味。。
你今天如此对我们，没关系。。对我们并无吃亏。。
但请你记住 ！！
总有一天。。你也会得到你应该有的报应的！！
你真正的真面目！
只有那些被你利用过的，才会了解！
在别人面前，你的戏中戏实在演得太真了！！
我写了出来，也不会怕你讨厌我。。。
洁莹能忍的，不代表我能忍！
请你认清对象！
你记住，人不犯我。。我不犯人！
但是一旦我忍无可忍。。那些得罪我的，
我一一跟她算清来！！
面子不是别人给的，而是在于你自己！
超越了限度，面子也没得给！！
看在洁莹的份上，我忍你！
继续扮你的无辜，
继续暗骂我们，
继续扮演你的角色，
继续存在在自己的世界吧 ！
不过，伪装的笑容。。请在我面前消失！
揭开的真面目，林岳帧！！！

She cry ??..

today is a boring day~
the whole day jus study study study !
dat stupid tcher demerit me..grr...TMD !
and i feel ..
many faker around me..
they can pretend like NOTHING in front anther pple..
they say many good words to u as posible as they can!!
in behind ..
they backstabb us !! FAKE !
what things did they will get ??
somemore pple acc them ??
or somemore pple support them ???
i doknw ..
whetever ! dun talk abt dis !
she is going tuition after skul..
but i feel dat her fren like angry us..they din talk to us..
why ?? so i call her to ask them..
after dat..when i go thr.. [goodall]
i saw..SHE CRY !! why ???
they tell me the reason..so i comfort her..
n gv her food to eat..
i knw she wun eat when she is sad..
when i reach home..she phone me..
she told me dat she gt eat n fren back with them d..
GOOD !! hahaha !
i m happy to hear dat ..
at least nw she is nt alone d.. =)
hope they will trust she can change..
n i hope too ~!
hmm..miss her hug ~~
LOL

end here

Our Friendship

today when i reach skul..yvonne call me go Goodall..
so me, esther, yvonne n yueh zheng go thr..
when we sit down..we din say anythings..just keep quite..~~
after 5 min..i saw her tears drop down..OMG !
then , yvonne help me to explain many things..
after finished quarell..i apologize to esther..
is my fault..i knw..mayb dis few days i already put u bside..
But i din feel it..i m stupid~~
SOrry .. i don't hope dat our frenship will bcum like dat..rily SORRY !!
but at least at the last period..we fren back..WHEE *
I M HAPPY !! but yz like dun like..haizhh..stil cant settle it ??
but if i should make a choice..i will choose Esther..
cos our frenship already 1 years sumthings..
sorry ! mayb will hurt u..but dis is a truth..
NOw, i m comfused ! i should hear whose wan ?? all double face !!
haizhh..dun think dat probelm already..
today she cant owaz come out..I MISS her..LOL
i call her cum out..she go pass up things..GRrr ~! nvm la..
n after skul..she gave me a letter ..
i m scaring..cos everytime she gv me a letter..
is talk abt break ar,b fren ar, dis such of things..BUt luckily..NOT !
hahaha..she jus told me tmr she is going band pratice..
FOR HALF DAY ~ haizhh..wait her lar .. =)
n now i only knw..i m so scare she leave me..love lots !
hope her fren will trust her la..
[NO MORE BLUFFING] ~ kay ??
miss her lots !!
going reply her msg..
NITEX !!

end here

Quarel ..

today when i reach skul..
i m bad mood..
coz she is in her band practice..
after dat, i wait wait wait ...
FINALLY !
recess time d ! WOHOO ~~
i can see her already ! yeah !!
but we jus talk a while..then quarel d..
i damn pek cek ! n my head very pain..
she went meeting la..keep her thgs la..
take her bag la !!
GRR !!
then i pull her shirt..IT is TEARED !
walao..then we quarell quarell..
haizhhh....
so stupid la me..
i not said i wan to rang her d meh ??
why i do dat ???
but at least after dat we din quarel d..
n tmr she wan to go gp..
wif jiamei..wad can i do ??
nvm la..she d promise jiamei..
i hope dat tmr she can cum n find me..
n zhu dong phone me..
haiz..miss her lots !!
sunday she is going to KL !
hope she can get bec her phone..cos it is confiscate by her aunt !!
LOL ! hope she can call me ..
i wait her phone..
dun talk bout dis la...
my exam result !? TMD !
my geo n KH fail ! FAIL ! u knw...
jus bm pass nia..
NO ! my dad will kill me ! haizzh
do knw la !
n now we just can chat in MSN ..
i cant hear her voice..
and please ! i din on with her kay !!
pls dun simply say me..
i knw just nw i said somethings wrong to u all..
sorry ! i hope dat u all won't angry.. =)
tomorrow i go to esther house ! WOO ~
n i suggest to make spaghetti ! haha !
dun laugh me..i will try to do it !
n tday..she is sick..
i hope she will eat medicine dat i gv her..
drink more water la !
dun say i din tell u kay ??
haha..u knw wad i mean rite ??
kay..nitex everyone !
miss her ~~ !

end here

My Bday Present ..

dis few days din write blog..STUDY..haha
today when i reach skul..
i was angry !
i angry her..why she can do card fr her fren..
butt i din hv ??
she nt promise me wanna do for me ??
is it i jealous ? MAYBE la..
we quarell outside goodall..n i throw her present !
cos i damn pek cek n cant control it !
but now nothing d..
i angry why she din buy present for me..
actualy she got her reason..
sorry ! really SORRY bout it !
actualy i shoudn't do dat to u ..
sorry, i din ask u clearly n missunderstand to u..
rily sorry ...haizhh
n today she rang me so much..
i was so bad..i cant do dat !
please ! JINYU !
it's enough already !!
STOP HURTING HER !! please..
i dun wanna heard dat she cry again..
so tmr i rang her everythings..
just hear all she say.. =)
i knw she cant blif me actualy..but nvm..
u will see the result tmr..
n today i gv her dat pic d..
hope she get higher marks la..i wish~
n after skul,
we splash water onto jiamei !
hahahaXx !
she is Soo wet !! =b
anyway..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAMEI !!!
WISH U HAPPY ALWAYS..
and today is 730 !!
11 months already !! whee *
although we jus fren..but i stil happy of it !
haizhh..
now is 1:35 already...
i cant sleep..MISS HER ?? maybe..
haizhh..rily miss her lots !!
and tmr she go early..
go jiamei house..
i hope she will revision her work la..
PLEASE lar..dun fail again..
i dont hope dat u transfer skul..
n today i did dat..
sorry, rily sorry to u !!
NITEX n SWEETDREAM everyone !!
include me n her !
see u tmr..MOMMY !!
dun angry already la..dun cry la..
tmr gv me dat present ya !
i will keep it..
THANKS ~!!
n i planning for her birthday d..
although stil have 1 month ! but...
SHhhh ~~
hope she will have supprise on dat day..
=D
miss her lots !!
waiting for tmr coming ! =)
going to sleep nw !

end here

真爱，是不惜任何结果。。

如果给你一次机会。。让你与你所爱的人重新在一起。。

这不是很好吗 ？？

得到了你所期待已久的结果。。。

不过，只限于到今日的日落

之后你们得分开了

你愿意吗？？

或许你会，或许你不会。。。

其实，

不追求结果的爱才是无限的。。

只因我们贪图完美，
想得到的只是结果。。短暂的爱。。。

真正的爱，

是不惜任何结果。。

不惜任何的代价。。

虽然有时情不得已，选择了分离

不过两颗真心，

是不会分离的。。。

爱一个人，

想得到的不是完美的结果。。

而是你们之间，

所拥有过的美好回忆。。。

所以，

不要只一心追求结果，

而忽略了那份最真挚的爱。。。

你最近还好吗

i like dis song..

it is meaningfull for me..

=)

你最近还好吗

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话

地址写的是心底

你能不能收到它

天有点冷 风有点大

城市宁静而喧哗

这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

问自己习惯了吗

没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大

有没有什麽好方法

让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗

是不是也在思念裏挣扎

你说会记得我 还记得吗

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗

如果真不得已忘了我

快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达

旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬

昨天远了 明天还长

回忆模糊但巨大

这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗

没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大

有没有什麽好方法

让寂寞更听话

你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念裏挣扎

你说会记得我 还记得吗

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗累吗 心还会痛吗

如果真不得已忘了我

快向快乐出发

。。。

I MISS HER the whole day..

today i wake up early..mother ! damn tired !!
i m so lazy to go skul..
when i reach there, i din saw ching chiet..
WHERE is her ?? hmm..i think i knw d..HEhex !
after dat..we sit at foyer n talk..
i feel sleepy man !
so we go kebajikan n sleep..Syok ! Zzzz....
then, we go n find PN.peh for the stupid kelas tahanan !
WTF ! we nit to swept all the stadium !
FOR ONE HOUR ..
walao..thr is dirty n hot..YUCksss !
and many form 2 student look at us..LOL
Finally ! we can rest..whee *
but we still must to swept the 3rd floor cos jux nw we r LATE !
FUCK La ! yijie n shinying laf us..
SO shame man !!!!
then we start our lesson..
dat tcher owaz teach..but we dun care abt her ! Hihi !
n suddenly..i miss her..
haizhh...after recess stil hve assembly..
i cant c her again..n today i very less talk to her only.. ~_~
n i feel dis few day when i talk to her..
she will fu yan me..i knw she will tell me din..
BUT I REALLY CAN FEEL DAT ..
maybe i jus think too much.. HEE*
haizhhhh....
do knw why..
today i will so miss her..THE WHOLE DAY..
n she has her tuition nw..i mus wait her phone..

［ 我想念她。。我才发觉原来。。我并还没放下她。。
我无法确定她对我还有无那份感觉。。
我也不想执著得到什么。。
只希望我们能永远永远当朋友。。
而我也不想再欺骗我自己。。保留着仅有的那份感觉。。
直到一天，我把它淡忘掉 。。。 ］

ＥＮＤ

she accept him ??

today when i reach skul..
me n esther go chicky pub..
she treat me eat spaghetti n icecream for my birthday..
she is so good ! i love her.. hahax !
after dat..we go to skul..
the tcher owaz teach teach teach..
BORING !!n i miss her..
when i saw her walk pass my class..i damn happy !
hahaha !!
but jinyin them..
haizhhh..
i don't hope our frenship will bcum like dat..
i try to talk wif her d..
but her attitude ! GRRR ...
if huiyine talk wif us,
she will angry..WHY ??
haizhh..issit we must apologize to u..
actualy we can ! but pls think urself first !
pls change ur attitude..
dun say we owaz ignore u kay !!
after the bell ring ...
OH MY GOD..
they pour water to my body..
i was wet ! NO !!
everyone look at me !! grrr...
walao eh..
n she told me in phone dat sumone chase her..
n ask me wan to accept him ??
WHAT !? don't la..
do knw why.. i will so sad..
issit i jealous ??
MAYBE..actually i stil like her..
but at last she din accept him !! WHEE *
hahaha !
hmm..i miss her lots..
she sleep d..haishhhh...
maybe she d tired for the whole day..
now i m wearing the necklace..
i miss her AGAIN ..

end

朋友，会陪伴着我们，走过每一段路。。

因缘分而相遇，因相遇而认识，

因认识而关心，因关心而劝解，

因劝解而争吵，因争吵而和好，

因和好而了解，因了解而明白，

因明白，而找到知心友。。

朋友，要经过种种考验，
才能磨练出最真挚的友情。。。
有时候。。
不要因为争吵而埋怨对方。。
不要因而影响了彼此的感情。。
真正的朋友，
才会无时无刻地关心你。。
而那些知道前方明明摆着陷阱，
却视若无睹，
没有即时劝告的朋友。。
平时只是表面上的应酬而已。。
脸上的笑容。。
是他们伪装的一面。。
我们永远都不知道，
他们几时会背叛我们。。。
几时会被利用。。
写到这里，
我并不是想影射谁。。。
如果你感到气愤。。
那是你心虚了。。
恋人，
只能给到我们短暂的快乐，
告诉我们最爱听的甜言蜜语。。。
直到有一天，
那份感情已不在。。
只留下悲伤的你，默默流泪。。
她还会回来安抚你吗 ？
或许只像陌生人那般，擦肩而过。。。
朋友，是永远的。。
他们不会离开我们。。
只会支持我们，
给予我们鼓励与安慰。。。
我现在的知心友，是她。。
无论怎样，
她都永远的陪伴在我的身边，
支持我。。。
有时我会因烦恼而犹豫。。
只有她，才会陪着我。。。
虽然她没为我做过任何伟大的事。。
不过她的关心，
在我伤心时得到了欣慰。。
在我放弃时劝我不要气馁。。
我真的很感谢她。。
她是谁？？
就是 jie ying 嘛 !!
她是我永远永远的。。好朋友 ！
而我现在的朋友，
我还需要时间来慢慢了解你们。。。
加油，我的朋友 ！
＝〕

I SICK !

today after celebrated wif my dad..
he took me to skul..
when i reach thr..i saw lynjen them only..
WHERE IS HER ??
finally i saw her...whee* HAPPY !
i was very high in the camp..

hahahax !! me n jiamei..ziqin take many pic for us..LOL

me n weicheen .. i scare her bf.. wa kia !!!

playing stupid game.. =.= ///

we all..whee *

but i forget jinyin d..
i go n find her n put her bside..
i was SOo bad..
n we two very sweet in the camp..LOL
happy ~!
after that..i sick !! WHAT ?
i hate sick !
i hate to eat medicine !
but finally i oso eat it.. cos i promise her d..
damn bitter lerh !
i nit her nw..
haizhh
3,
2,
1
.........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF !
i wish dat all my dream
come true !
=)

end

another her??

i view her blog..
she say she miss a pple..
who is tat??
issit me ? but the title is :
[ another her ]
i think she is nt writing me..
maybe she already find her target ..
anyway..
wish her happy all the way..
n doknw y..
i feel a bit sad..
haizhhh..

end here

NITEx

喜欢，只是一时的错觉而已。。

这几天里，
开始发现自己对她。。
是错觉或是喜欢？
终于，迷茫的我找到了合适的答案。。
喜欢一个人。。
心里不时会想起她。。
想找她陪伴。。
虽然未能肯定
她是否是你心里的那个人
但至少你能肯定的，
是她已在你心中占了一部分。。
而好感，
。。
或许在你最脆弱时。。
她纯粹的安慰，
让自己不由自主地产生了错觉。。
喜欢或错觉。。
想清楚吧 ！自己到底想要的。。是什么。。
别因而伤了另一个不该爱的人。。
而我，
对她只是友情的喜欢而已。。
其他的，
我不想多说了。。

她和她。。

她的离开，我只有流泪
她的背叛，我只有埋怨
结束了
我问了自己 ：
是放不下还是不习惯 ？
不懂得。。也不晓得
能给我快乐的，那不是谁。。
最终，懦弱的我
还是选择了
另一个她。。。
放手，
不是给不到对方幸福
而是希望她幸福。。
不要因为失去而难过，
你曾经拥有的。。
无论是甜是苦，
这是别人永远。。永远都无法拥有的
。。。
回忆。。。
不要埋怨她的不好
因为她已在你脑海里
留下最完美的
。。。
记号。。。

Wait for you ..

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Elliott Yamin
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is
& it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you
So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting ..

HOMEWORK homework....

today when i reach skul..
i saw HER..she told me that someone juling her..
WHY ? n she juling me too..
i think she is bad mood..so i din find her..
BINGO ! i ask yvonne..
she quarel with her fren..so unhappy..
[ dun like dat la..u angry time rily ugly lerh ! ]
mus SMILE *
today i play wif her..SOoo swt.. -.- ///
after that..i borrow her book..
i feel boring..so write somethings in her book..
[ friendship forever ]
when i came back from lab B wif gmaine..
SHE SCOLD ME !??
damn scary ! she is so fierce..
SORRY ! please dun angry..tmr rub for u lar..
when English lesson, i forget to bring book..
dat stupid tcher wanna demerit me !!
WALAO..72 marks d..i will kena gantung u knw..
i damn angry..everyone look at me..
then.... I CRY !
i dunwan to transfer skul..
I HATE DIS TCHER !
she call me to write letter, promise her..LOL
N DO ALL HER HOMEWORK ! pass up tmr !?
haizhh..tonight i should do until midnite d..i think..
i hate it !!
i m tired now..
going reply her msg..
sorry anyway.. =)

END

transfer skul ??

haishhhhh..
today..my dad cum to skul to sign the blacklist things..
DAMN SCARY MAN !!
i hide myself n not dare to cum out..
when they told me dat my dad is go back d..
i only cum out..and..
suddenly... I CRY !??
i feel dat i make my dad dissapointed to me..
althought i promise him bfore..
but i din do it..
feel rily SORRY to him..
i should change !
i cant continue to make my family dissapointed to me..
maybe tmr..
i will apologize to my dad..
n i dowan to transfer..
hope my dad will trust me the LAST time..
now..me n her jus fren..
mayb i already accept it..
hope we r making a good choice.. =)
end here..

NITEx..

normal fren...

dis few day..
i m lazy to write my blog..
lazy..no mood..
haihsss..
today she told me..
wanna b normal fren wif me..
i cant control my tears..
AGAIN?? i cry again..
i cry..i cant give up her..
actualy i stil love her.
maybe..MAYBE we mus stop at here..
maybe we two r not suitable to together..
and now..i jus can stay bside her,
support her ..
'an wei' her when she need..
dis is the last things dat i can do..
maybe i should let her go..
10 months..
it's enough d..i rily tired..
be fren better la..
i think..
=)

［珍惜］。。。

有很多人。。就连我自己。。
也都不懂得珍惜。。。
到底是不晓得。。还是不清楚。。
自己也不知道。。。
心里所忍受过的伤害。。
已留下深刻的伤痕。。
难道，
几句的对不起。。
就能弥补得来吗？？
就算是过去了。。心，就不会再痛了吗 ？？？
无形中的痛苦。。
你承受得来吗？？
［珍惜］，
珍惜现在拥有的。。
不要无尽止的追求完美。。
因为你自己也不完美。。。。
记得。。
一旦失去了，就很难弥补回来了。。
时间也许能冲淡哀伤，
但付出的真情是收不回的。。
珍惜，
因为我们永远都不知道。。
哪一次，
才是真正的。。
最后一次。。。

Miss her !!!

tday..i m damn tired..
when i reach skul..
i stil cant see her..cos she is in band..
haixhh..
i go n find esther..
she told me dat all her fren put aeroplane??
hahaha..so we go chicky pub..
after that..
we go to skul..
FINALLY ! I SAW HER !!
hahaha..damn happy..
i miss her the whole day..
some period she cant cum out..
haizhh..nvm la..
i dowan she get demerit..
but at least at last period..
i find her..WHEE*
n dat c.c. ..
dey so geng..
french in toilet for 35 minutes !!
WOW~
kena ponteng oso nvm..
do knw how to advice her la..
nothing to say..
jus miss her lots..
she cant online..ltr msg her la..
going eat my dinner..
so stop nw..
BYE